Of course we're bummed. But today was rough, with an increase in the amount of blood I was seeing and the anxiety... I was worried that if it was positive that there was something seriously wrong. I don't want the first moment of my pregnancy to be me panicking about some NOT-normal side effect. So on to the next plan.
I will be starting birth control at the end of the week, and will remain on that for about 5 weeks - to get us over the holiday hump. Then we'll start right back up with day 1 of that cycle. This time we are doing an FET - frozen embryo transfer. I have 4 frozen blastocysts, so they will thaw and transfer. I will update on that process as we near the time. It's only 3 doctor visits - (WHOA!) so I'm looking forward to this cycle for the simple reason that it's low maintenance. I will only have a total of 10 (or so) injections before the FET. Ah, the simple things...
For now I'm going to mourn our attempt for a moment and then enjoy the holidays with my wonderful husband and family. My body needs a break from all of these hormones! I'm thinking a nice glass of red wine will help my "detox." :)
So sorry for the negative beta. Hope you enjoyed the wine! And, best of luck with the FET!
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I am so amazed and in awe of your positive attitude. I'm just starting this journey and think I deserve to be slapped in the face with how negative I've been. I'm not usually a negative person, so I feel like my alter-ego has escaped during this process. How do you stay so positive? I'm so impressed. I alter between not wanting to get out of bed with depression once a month, and just wanting to throw things at anyone who tells me that it will happen in God's time, or to "be patient". I think the next person who tells me to be patient may get punched in the face. See- look at that negativety coming out. Who am I? When did I get like this? And how do you keep it from consuming every waking thought? I use to have a life before this- what happened? I use to find other things important before... I think I may literally be going insane. How do you stay so positive?
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